Christian life·mom life·Photography

Friendship with my daughters

Good morning and God bless you all. I have a question for you. How was your relationship with your mother? And do you think it affects you today? As for me growing up, I did not have a good relationship with adoptive mother and it still affects me today. I will say that because of my experience it really makes me a better mom for my two daughters. Well, today’s blog post is not about me so let’s start.

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I remember crying to God when I was younger I kept telling him  » God if you know I will be a bad mom please don’t ever let me be a mom » I also remember telling God when I will be a mom I want my kids to be my best friends.

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I know my oldest daughter is only one year old but I include her in everything I do. Before I blog about something I tell her first. I know she does not understand anything but I just want her to know that she and her sister matters to me.

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You guys have no idea how I value their opinions. My youngest is 5 months old and talk to her about my struggles and she looks at like if I’m a crazy lady. But I know one day she’ll understand. I can’t wait for Eliza to turn one so I can take pictures of her. I can never get a good shot of her.

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A lot of people ask me why are you so nice and friendly with your kids. Well, the truth is I need them as much as they need me. these kids are my best friends, I’m able to tell them everything because I know they love me. I think by telling my kids everything it will open the door for them to talk to me about everything.

Well, guys, that’s it for today I know it was all over the place but I’m a mess what can I say. I hope you enjoyed this post. I love you all and Stay bless my friends.

xo Marie

 

Beauty·Christian life·fashion

10 things I’m currently obsessed about

well hello my loves, I’m very sorry for the long break I took. I have to be honest I really needed to take care of me and my newborn baby. The delivery was a little bit scary. We’re not going to talk about that don’t worry. in this blog post we’ll talk about the 10 things I’m currently obsessed about.

1. Juicing

I had the desire to start juicing when I was 38 weeks pregnant. I had absolutely no idea that I would love it as much as I do!! I do different kind of juice and I’m always excited for the next recipe so far I lost 20.2 lbs

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2. coffee

yes I know that you already know that. If you didn’t now you know haha.

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3. Perfume

A woman’s perfume tells more about her than her handwriting. – Christian Dior I believe that you don’t need an explanation…

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4. lip gloss

I just want to remind you ladies you do not need makeup to be beautiful it’s all about your character. But I do like a good lip gloss just to add a little sparkle into my day.

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5. Fashion

I love to look beautiful because I believe when I look good I feel good. I literally feel like amazing in the right outfit. « The secret of great style is to feel good in what you wear. » Inès de la Fressange

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6. Shoes

I’ve always like a good pair of shoes. I have a pair of shoes for every occasions. I don’t own a lot of flats but I’m working on it guys

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7. My business

As you guys know I’m a new entrepreneur and I launched my business earlier this year and I’m working really hard to succeed at what I do. Being an event decorator was a dream of mine since I was 16 years old. By the grace of God I have the chance to do what I like for a living.

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8. The bible app

I know it sounds crazy but it’s true I just love the bible app so much. I’ve finally found the perfect bible app and I believe it would be a blessing to you as well. the devotional plans are just the best. https://www.youversion.com/

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9.Home decor

My husband and I got a new place!!! we started in a 1 bedroom and God gave us a 3 bedroom and it’s pretty big. you know what that means right? I spend more time on Pinterest looking at home decor. I also do a lot of shopping at Homegoods I’ll have a video for you guys.

10. Trying new things

As a mom of 2 I try to take the kids to new places for new adventures. I have to thank my kids because I get to things I wouldn’t normaly do by myself such as pumpkin patch, new Ice cream place, go to the museum or go to a new park

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Christian life

Suicide Attempt Survivor As A Christian

Hey my loves!! Today I want to talk to you about the worst year of my life (2014) I’m not telling you this story for you to feel bad for me. The reason why I’m sharing this story with you is because I want you to know that YOU’RE NOT ALONE.
Whatever you’re feeling right now is completely normal, but I want you to be better than me. I want you to SPEAK UP. Remember you have people who loves you for who you are. There are people who’ll understand you. I know it’s not easy to open up about suicide because I went to it myself. Please don’t be afraid to talk. NATIONAL SUICIDE PREVENTION LIFELINE: 1-800-273-8255
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Here’s my story:
I remember the first time I wanted to kill myself was back in 2006 when I was only 10 years old. I was in a very dark place in my life, I felt like I wasn’t useful, because every day I would hear the same things over and over. (you’re useless, you’re nothing, why are you even alive for? you’re the worse kid in the world, I never met anyone as bad as you.) I use to listen to the song only believe all things are possible everyday to help me. It was 2014 I decided that I had enough of the mental and physical abuse, So I prayed and ask God to help me, I told him that I don’t want to live in this world anymore if he can only come to help. I took the pills and drank them, but deep inside I was hoping that I would live to receive metal help at the hospital. the reason why I attempt suicide was because I wanted to get away these toxic people putting down always. It wasn’t really about dying, but for me it was a way to escape the pain I was going through.
You’re probably asking yourself why I didn’t ask for help or why did I stay in that situation. I grew up in a christian home where the only people who can help you was the pastor’s prayers. Unfortunately the christians in my life were very judgmental. If I would dare tell them I’m depressed, they would tell me how can you be depressed when you have such a christian family and amazing church?
To me, being depressed was such of unholy thing, and I felt like I was a disgrace for the Christians.
I want you to remember something prayers do WORK! If you feel like you’re ashamed to talk to others about your struggles, remember there is a man who can remove the spirit of depression. Talk to God and Trust in him your situation is NOT forever. If it wasn’t for Jesus I wouldn’t be where I’m at today.
Don’t let them break you. don’t let their words get to you. My friends I’m begging you to hold on to Jesus and find help.. God is going to bless you in your storm so trust in him and don’t give up.
I know what you’re going through and I understand you stay strong my love the storm is over.
Psalm 46:1 God is our refuge and strength, A very present help in trouble.